Monthly Archives: March 2015

A New Year of Life and Stuff That Matters

It’s my birthday.  I started the day by sleeping in (until 7:30am), made myself some toast, and went for a run.


Yes, I went for a run.  A very, very slow run, but a run none-the-less.  The mileage and time is really something that could be debated, however I believe my after-run calculations are pretty accurate. (In the interest of complete disclosure, I am not superhuman.  I did not run through houses or through water!)

Cheers to Turtle Power:


As a birthday gift to myself, I also purchased and tested the FlipBelt (  I am not even sure how I came across this, but I know it took about 15 minutes of research to determine I wanted it.  Here’s the scoop, directly from their website:

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The verdict?  It’s pretty nifty, especially considering I didn’t want an armband for my cell phone.  I purchased this specifically because I decided to use the C25K app from to get me out and running again.  Perhaps it’s because my hips don’t lie, but I did experience the belt riding up from my hips to my waist during my run.  It didn’t bother me, but I was hoping it was going to stay on my hips.  Perhaps when the running starts to pay off; their website doesn’t show anyone human-sized, just fitness-model-esque.

I am proud of myself for getting out there, especially after doing a number on my ankle yesterday.  I want more for my life than I have been acting on.  I’ve accomplished a lot, but it hasn’t provided joy.  Joy is the goal.  Being is the path.


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My Food Guidelines

One of the things I’ve learned about myself through the eating disorder diagnosis is that throughout my life, I’ve had a lot of food rules.  These rules have ruled… and ruined… my life, so this time around I am really working on honoring that there are no inherently “bad” foods, simply foods I place more emphasis on and haven’t made peace with yet.  It’s a difficult transition to be certain.

I thought I’d take the time to write out what I intend to be the program I follow.  True to my nature, it’s not cookie cutter.  It’s a combination of all the learning that I have absorbed during the last 5 years of my life.  I know extreme, all-or-nothing does work for me… but this moderation approach?  This will be new territory.

Here’s the Scoop (no pun intended):

1. I primarily drink almond milk or soy milk.  I work to avoid dairy, though cheese and ice cream haunts me.  I like them, they don’t like me quite as much.
2. I am currently eating breakfast in the morning and intend to continue.
3. I drink 1-2 cups of coffee a day, with organic cane sugar and almond milk.  I have no intention of giving that up.
4. I work very hard to keep sucralose (splenda) out of my diet.
5. My drink of choice is water.
6. I occasionally consume alcohol.
7. I don’t smoke.
8. I intend to follow a mindful eating regimen
9. I do not intend on counting calories outside of tracking my own understanding of what something may have in it.  That’s crazy making business right there.
10. I plan on following the 2/3/4 – Complex Carbs/Protein/Fat.  I recently became educated on how food sustains the body, which has become the basis for this decision.  In every meal, I will work to incorporate a complex carb, a protein and a fat.  Complex carbs satiate for about 2 hours, proteins for 3 hours and fats for 4 hours.  Because of this, a regular eating plan can be created.

I understand that this is going to require time and attention, something I’ve been very diligent at giving others and not myself.  However, I feel it’s time.  I want to be happy and healthy and joyful daily.  I want to relish in the life that I have built for myself, as I have worked hard to get where I am.  It’s ok that I now want to enjoy the fruits of my labor.  Literally.

For future personal reference, here are some examples for the 2/3/4:

Complex Carbs:

Rice (White, Brown, Wild)
Potatoes and Roots Vegetables
Pita Bread


Greek Yogurt


Olive oil
Salad Dressing
Veggie Dip

Help me add to this list!  Enlighten me 🙂


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In Preparation

It’s been a long time since I have done anything that involved improving my health.  After a very successful 2010-2011, teaching myself to run and losing a significant amount of weight, I came undone slowly.  My nature is to GoGoGoGoGoGo, so I decided to become professionally certified in several different arenas, sell my house, buy a new house and start/finish grad school in a 2 year period.

Insanity.  I see that now.

During that time, I learned a lot about myself.  For instance, while I never let the ball drop (as evidenced by my 4.0 graduate GPA) I can’t do it all AND maintain any level of balance and health, though I am much stronger than I gave myself credit for.

Most importantly, however, was the unearthing of the fact I have an eating disorder (EDNOS).  After several years of therapy, I am now in partial remission however I am on the precipice of taking the next step, which involves using my new knowledge about myself and my health and getting healthy in a healthy, sustainable way.  To date, I have only known extremes, all-or-nothing.  Much harder to incorporate moderation, kindness and grace for myself.

I want more for myself.  It may seem silly, but I realized being halfway 70 means I need to really get my proverbial act together and stop wishing I was in a different place in my life.  I’ve missed out on a lot of fun because of how I have felt about myself, I don’t want to miss out on anything else.  Life is really too short.

By March 2016, I want:

– to be running three 5Ks weekly for fitness
– down 65 pounds
– wearing a size 12/14
– to say No when I don’t want to do something
– to say Yes when I want to do something
– be eating healthy, according to the 4/3/2, 90% of the time
– be able to look back and be proud of what I have accomplished

I can do this.  It’s going to be jumpstarted by ReNew Life’s First Cleanse.  I plan on starting this March 22. I’ll be tracking my progress and experience as this will be my first cleanse ever.  I’m also intending to start the Couch to 5K program during the same timeframe, so it shall be a period of transition for me.  Feel free to cheer me on throughout my journey!


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